I wish I had the energy for witty, heartfelt posts. I just don't have it in me these days.

Life is hard right now. Well, life is hard always but right now my world is harder than usual. Nothing to do with Lily, really, aside from the fact that she is almost 3 and can be extremely difficult, but she is the easy part of life right now. All I can say is that I am thankful for my family and (most of) my health. Life's twist and turns are just a little... Turbulent right now.

Because I want to remember where we are, here are some Lilyisms:
- she loves, loves, loves technology. My parents bought her an iPad for Christmas and she is an addict. I'm not kidding. She wakes up talking about it. "mommy, I want my iPad". At 7am. She's just so great at navigating gadgets, too. It's amazing. She's so smart.
- she misses school some days, but mommy doesn't. She has been healthy (knocks on wood) and I am just enjoying keeping her a "baby" while I can. Her days will be filled with school 5 days a week soon enough. For now, she is mine and I am liking keeping her home.
- she has complete conversations. It's been this way for a couple months but now she truly processes and uses words and phrases correctly, not just from memorization.
- a funny story relating to the last ism: a couple weeks ago, we were getting ready to leave the house. I put a diaper on the couch so I could change her before we left and went into my room to get my shoes. When I came out of my room, Lily was getting up from a kneeling position off of the floor. She was mumbling something under her breath. "What are you saying, baby?", I asked. "You'll never find it nowwwwwwww", she repeated. I had no idea what she was talking about, until I went to look for the diaper I had just brought out. She hid the diaper under the couch. Like Swiper from Dora the Explorer. She has watched Dora enough now to completely grasp the concept of what Swiper, the fox that steals things but always learns his lesson, does. She was laughing so hard at herself for doing this. It was really funny.
- this kid loves her space. She will cuddle and hug when she wants to, but don't push her.
- she loves tantrum throwing, too. It's usually about every other day that we're convinced that the devil had taken control and that's her head will spin around. They usually come right after nap time and will last about 30-60 minutes. The other night it was triggered because I took one of HER pretzels off of her snack plate. Screamed. For 35 minutes. Even went into my parent's upstairs bedroom, in the dark, by herself and would not allow anyone in the room without screaming "NOOOOOOO!!!!!! GOOOOO AWAYYYYYYYYY!!!!". It's a lot of fun.
- there isn't any sign of any additional girly-ness emerging. She doesn't like baby dolls, princess crap, or anything down that Barbie isle at Target, which we run right past to get to the Cars and Toy Story isles.
- she loves playgrounds. Loves. Slides are the best.
- potty training is a no go. She may be shitting in her pants in middle school at this rate. She understands the concept, will sit on the potty, pretend to go, wipe, pretend to flush....and then ask for her diaper to be put back on so she can take a dump. Yep, she will hold it until that diaper is put back on. It might be a long road with this.

That's all I have for tonight. I am really wanting to freeze time with her right now. I don't want her to grow up. I can see my baby becoming a kid. It's too much, too soon.